Ah, Pune...

So nice... :D !

Hey winter !

....I want you on your best behaviour ! Treat me with respect and care :3 !

Get up early for work ?

Yay ! -_- its 5:21 am and I'm going for a 2 day work that will hopefully pay me on time, this time.

I plan to eat a truck load with the wage :D !

What..

I don't know really, maybe we all grow up someday and we have to face one of use leaving this world. I'm still not over it okay ? so shut the fuck up !

But somebody else I knew passed a way a while back. We weren't close or anything but we said Hi, couple of times. Anywho, thats just life right ?

In a few weeks I'll be on a plane, yes, something I'm afraid of, a plane. But I really don't care what happens..I really don't, I'll just ride my way to my destiny or death whatever....

And then you'll wish you could warn me, but that only happens in movies, where you could warn somebody that they would die if they walked into a situation.

Life....is and always will be life in the end. I know this because it slammed me right in the face, the happy days are over. I'm not being emo-tard or something, I'm just saying, if you were 20ish or whatever, you get that feeling in you, your easy days are over.

I didn't sleep today, did some stupid law shit. I'm off to bed now at a time where most people get up.

Theres this awesomely beautiful song Harshi liked called Falling Slowly, it is the soundtrack to a movie called "Once" ? Its really beautiful.

God knows what other songs she has in her playlist.

Anywhoo, goodmorning everyone, Goodnight !

Love you Harshi XD !

Hm...Thoughts..

So what are my thoughts ?

I really don't know, my mind is scrambled.

A lot happened this year, and I'll probably remember it.

As much as I look forward to the new year, I wish I could rewind time and go back to the beginning.

Maybe I could've tried to get a job.

Maybe I could've spent more time with Harshi.

Maybe...a lot of things.

I learnt the harsh reality of the world. Things happen, and for no reason at all.

Your best friend could die of a simple reason as a is pilot sleeping. There isn't anything I can do now, I only find myself hoping that something does exist beyond this world and the bible is somewhat true in some aspects.

I'm happy and Sad at the same time,

I've made new bonds with new friend but some of the bonds of the past have broken. Its hard to keep it all together with a busy schedule, but I'll try reconnecting the dots if I can.

Next year I turn 21, my thoughts ?

I'm still gonna act like my young self, Yes, I have to be a bit mature but I'm not losing my craziness.

Anywho...Lol, I don't think anyone reads this anymore..haha

but whatever,

Goodnight.

Goodnight Harshi !!!! Even though I feel helpless, I'll still be strong. !!! I love you forever.

Tired... So tired...

Dubai Game Expo Centre 2010

Awesome day ?

Yep ! Today was kind of an awesome day for me as I got to see my game stall in the Dubai Game Expo 10. Its not the best thing but its a start and definately a good rep point to put into my CV. Will post the link to the pictures soon...

Abu Dhabi + Yas Marina Circuit + Ferrari World

Hate.

Yes I hate myself...
Why ?

Well I preferred luxury over experience, thinking that Dubai would be super awesome and I was wrong. I'm going to be honest, the reason I chose Dubai is because it offered the luxury that wasn't available in India. Seriously, this isn't the college life I dreamed of. Where are slumber parties, road trips, a lot of friends...
I'll soon turn old, too old to be enjoying college life, to old to enjoy.

Hi Brandon, you're such a dumbass.
Goodnight.

Realized

I just realized I'm nobody.

:') ! Love you..

I will never ever forget you

You have the most perfect face ever..

Harshini Poonja (1991-2010)

I love you,

Goodnight.

Cough, Well hello there !

Yeah, I haven't been here for a long time..Thats mainly because of all my assignments at the end of the 4th Trimester. I still find myself in a whirlpool of work and sleep deprived days. Ok, not totally for the latter but yeah, I just finished my 4th trimester and I have a week off but I'm still busy with work.
Work that I kicked myself into so that I hopefully get my portfolio buffed up.

I'm working with a team of game designers and we're working on a test game, just a test game, and its kinda overloading me, but I dragged myself into this for a reason or various reasons.Hopefully we get somewhere with it.

The 4th trimester, it seems events went passed me quickly, since my first day of college.

2 more trimesters to go and then I finish college. What will happen next ? I don't know.

Events that took place this year, I'll never forget. This year will probably be one of those years that will keep stinging me a tiny bit till I die. Stinging me with accomplishment or stinging me with sorrow...either..

I got to work on my english too, my vocabulary seems to be failing on me...Sigh ! Gotta read some books for a change. Sometimes I just wish I could just fall into a never ending hole where I don't have to do anything but rest or sleep.

College / work is taking a toll on my health and my eyes, I don't know why but somehow my eyes can take it, somehow, I'm blessed with strong eyes...lol

Nothing new has happened lately, couple of friends coming back to Dubai soon, gonna meet them, and yep thats all I think. Not much to do around here if you don't work.

I went to Gitex, really freaking crowded but I still went because of my techno-fangirly brain. I got a mouse pad though, not just any mousepad, a Razer mousepad and with that I got a bunch of freebies, so yeah, a new member of the Brandon's gadgets family.

Heres how Razer my workspace looks :

I love blogging, it lets me remove all the stress and rants out of my brains over here.

This is it for now.

:)

For Harshini : I LOVE YOU ! FOREVER !! YOU ARE STILL THE MOST AWESOME PERSON I EVER KNEW. Haunt me please !

Meditation.

...leads to the ability of seeing ghosts ? 
I'm going to try this.

Where are you ?

(1991-2010)

Where are you ?

Why can't you tell me.I keep thinking about you, everyday.

No, I can't forget it and its really hard to.

I want to hug you ! Even if it meant just for 1 minute and then I wouldn't see you again.

The only thing close to hugging you is hugging 'Mom' !

People will tell me to leave the past to the past and look forward to the future but I'll make sure I take this 'Past' with me, this memory.

I'm now really angry at God, if he exists that is.

I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like leaving this place.

I really don't feel like going away from 'Mom'....

I really don't believe in the paranormal, but I'll believe it anyways.

I'll die believing something exists than believing nothing does.

I won't be sad when I'm dead, I'll be dead, no feelings, no emotions, thats the end of me.

If something does exist beyond, then I'll send a message.

Goodnight Harshi, This blog is partly yours ! and your picture will be there forever.

I love you !

Goodnight.

Friend.

Whats it like to have a best friend ? I don't know.
I have close friends but no Best friend.

But I know they are really really awesome people.

Sigh.

Wonder.

Sometimes I wonder how less troublesome life would be for my family if I didn't exist.

Transform.

Gotta get started on my animation pretty soon.

Start up with storyboarding and then building it in 3d.

I slept for 11 hours today. 4:00 am to 6:12 pm.

Thats not good.

Gotta do many things.

I want to be able to see ghosts.

What am I doing ?

Animation will get the better of me one day.

Portfolio

In relation to my last post, I've made a portfolio site, something to keep me going perhaps.

CLICK HERE

Transmissions.

I'm here staring at myself at the mirror and just going deep into my own eyes.

What have I done till now ? What have I done to make a name for myself ?

Nothing.

It's a really crappy feeling you get when you have opportunities floating up and bursting right in your face, mocking and teasing you as they die out.

When you're all alone on your bed thinking about the future you and hoping he would be a jolly old man living a good life, perhaps a good partner, perhaps a good kid. Perhaps...living life.

But for now I just see myself in a shell, looking at the dark walls that surround me and the blue glowing rectangle place upon wood at the location I confine myself in at home.

Everyday just seems like a 2 way highway to me, I just need that bit of help that broken down cars get at the side of the road, something, somebody, some of it.

As for now, I'll just think for a while, perhaps I'm writing this while my real self is sleeping inside me, dying to awake one day to be somebody great.

I want you back.

I just watched a show called pushing daisies and I so wish I had the power to bring you back to life, even if it meant I couldn't touch you, hug you or hi5 you again for eternity, at least the others would be able to....You made me so happy in a time where I thought I was so alone in the world + you introduced me to weird bunch-o-crazy people.

I so wish fairytales did exist....I feel as if a part of my life has just walked away but whatever it takes, I'll still live it....There's not a single day where I don't think about you. You're in my head.

I know people go, I didn't think you would go this early. I feel lost again Harshi...
I don't know why I'm so rationalistic, I wish I wasn't so but I can't help it..I still keep that little hope in me that I'll find that answer I'm looking for..and hope I see you again.

You're not just some one who left, you're a part of me. You will always be a part of me. Forever.

love you Harshi...

Harshini Poonja(1991-2010)

Gone.

Sometimes I think,
Before I'd go, I'd want to make everyone happy and set everything straight.

I don't care if I didn't reach my goals...
I don't care if I didn't have a girl friend.

I don't care if I wasn't rich.

I'd go, happy. Maybe, I'd be sad for a while, but maybe I wouldn't feel anything because theres nothing to feel. But yeah, set everything straight.

I'll go.

Someone Important.

Whatever you want....:)

Something.

Nothing beats going back into the past eh ?

Nothing like checking out the old numbers and scribbles on the wall, and the old posters and stickers...

Nothing like a good early morning Kuwait breakfast with cheese, eggs and tea.
Nothing like the amazing weather out here...

Nothing like saying hello to your dad and sister after a long time....

Nothing like sleeping in your own den with the most amazing fluffy blanket ever....

Nothing like walking into your house and finding out you have a nice white fluffy dog....
..Nothing...

This place has such a chilled out lazy atmosphere..... <3

Wings.

Yay ! I'm going on a plane......=_-

Mood : You know that feeling you get when you are 5 minutes away from getting your Board Exam Results and your heart is in your mouth ?

Anywhoo....

I'll just have to trust the Pilot ! I'm guessing he has gone through every possible crappy situation, even aliens invading the plane.

Harshi please watch over me !! I love you &lt;3&nbsp;
I LOVE YOU HARSHI !!! &lt;3 &lt;3 &lt;3

Going to Kuwait...

Yep, I'm off to Kuwait for a week.....Hopefully a week is also Ramadan holidays..

Goal.

Make everyone around me happy before I go....

What is it ?

I'm scared....I look around me and all I see are black walls, monolithic. What do they stand for ? I don't know but I do know they have a haunting presence.

My refuge.

Lost.

God (if he does exist) has abandoned me.

I can't find the answers and its getting tiring.

I find myself in an empty void, like a black ocean with me in the middle of it on a boat where there is nothing but water.

I feel this feeling every night and maybe its the music I'm listening to right now, but I feel it, it resonates.

Harshi,

You are one of those people I would never forget in my life..

Give me a sign..

I beg you.

The Black Eyed Peas......

Free Spirit.

You are awesome ! And will be awesome forever...I'll make sure my kids know about you ! I'll try my best to keep everyone together :3 !!!

I owe you, I owe you big time. You own me when I die...I promise.

Things.

Feel.

Feel ?

I felt a lot of things today. A wave of negativity and a white wall. I don't seem to be happy around here and I don't know why. This place just feels like a card-board to me and I wasting my college life here, I really feel that I am.

The assignments took a toll on my sleep and now I'm partial insomniac and after I submitted my assignment, I went into BLAH mood where I found myself staring blankly at the switched off laptop on my table and my poster.All grumpy and shit.

I have friends here, I'm not saying I don't, but getting to those friends are either hampered by time, college or some other bullshit. The only friend that sticks with me are my headphones.

My headphones are an expression of "GO FUCK YOURSELF ! " to the world, its one of the things I never leave my house without. Lot of things happened these past months and it seems time just flew by in a blink of an eye.

Maybe life is trying to teach me something here, but I can't quite understand it and the very fact I can't understand it annoys me. I don't know what to do or try anymore, my life is just college/computer/sleep thats fucking all.

Maybe I'll click pictures of the nice things I find here, maybe I'll find someone to love again, maybe I'll fix my insomnia, maybe....

Anyways goodnight....I don't even think anyone reads this...but goodnight...

Goodnight Harshi, you look beautiful as ever, I hope you're watching over all of us, and I hope there is really an afterlife....I miss you..

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Omen !

Happy Onam everyone.

Yuck

What the heck man ? Whats with Dubai and Ed Hardy, YUCK ! I just went to Karama Center and its EVERYWHERE ! and the worst part is its all cheap. Lol, funny how they made an expensive product Cheap.

Never will I buy anything Ed Hardy, its so crap.
OOooH I found these awesome purple checkZ pants I'm thinking of buying ! :D !

I'm trying to make up a new outfit..rawr...
Anywho, I'll blog more later.

Hi...

Hi ! Well, today is going to be 'finish all assignments' day !! And I am going to try and finish all assignments !!!

And also...

• Give a brief review about my gear I use.
• Rant about life.

Stay tuned :D !

OMFG ?

HOLY SHIT !

I know what my dad and mom goes through now, just to get their pay. We'll not exactly, but the annoyance you have to be to get paid.

I came to Mall of the Emirates at like 12 in the morning and called my 'Payer'. The previous day he said he was going to settle it in the morning. So I'm here in Mall of the Emirates, all happy and excited. Then he calls me and tells me to meet him at MOE at around 4 pm. I was a bit bummed, but still bit excited. So I was like, ok ! Then he calls again at 3:47 pm and tells me to me the timing has changed to around 5:00 pm. More bummed. So then I wait till around 5pm when he tells me its shifted to 6:00 pm @ Media City.

Kinda annoyed ? Yes ! I was.

So I take the metro to Media City and check my pants for loose change. I find a cab and like ask him for directions. He was like " Okay ! ", he probably thought I was going to get into the cab. I told him I had 6 and if 6 would do. He told me he'd give me a free ride.

Thank god for him !

I go to the place and the dude makes me wait at the Mc Donalds near the area. So I wait there for around 30 mins. He finally appears, we talk and I get my pay.

In my mind the only things going off is " OMFG ! Its about time ! THANK YOU !

FINALLY OMFG ! I GOT IT ! And its not even a BIG amount. Anyways, I'm really exhausted right now. I'm typing this at the food court of MOE. Yeah, I came back ! To have some me time. My legs hurt but then I think of my dad who walks around in hot sunny areas managing projects and my mom who is pestered by office politics.

This was my first ever pay in my life.I Although I'm really exhausted and tired, I feel kinda happy.

Time taken to get pay : 7 hours.

Hurra !

(Legs hurting )

There's this feeling of relief in me. Its like a post hurricane scenario. Whats it ?

Sorry, for not updating my blog for long time now. I was busy whining about how boring this boring place is. Irony right ? Hmm…..

Science cannot make head or tail of true OBE ! HAHAHAHAH :D Suck that scientists. Me saying that is really odd, since I got my rationalistical ( <<-- Is this even a fucking word ) tendencies.

But then I ask myself, what is life ? I'm not trying to be one that whines about it, I'm just trying to search for the answer. Perhaps one day the answer will come, one way or the other. Until then, I'll just live.

I don't believe we're just biological mass, that has a brain and can die one day. We must have something more in us, something that can surpass physical limitations.

As, OBEs show us, and I'm talking about the genuine ones.

Explain this,

A woman met with an accident, and she was unconscious. While her unconscious self was on the emergency table in the ambulance, she said she could see herself being operated on from another point of view. Then she recalls floating above her body, rising upwards ( while she was in the ER bed). She kept going up, till she reached to terrace of the particular hospital. And then she went back into her body.

She spoke to her relatives and those around her at the time about her experience. Her friends and doctors thought it was a hallucination until she told them that she saw a tennis shoe on the terrace. One of her friends went up to the terrace to clarify this statement, and to her amazement, there it was, a tennis shoe, turned sideways exactly how the woman told her.

Now you're probably going all, " Oh ! its just made up !" or " Oh, what a coincidence."

I find this rather amusing and what amuses me is how scientist like to stray away from such topics because it trying to mess around with their scientific rationales and beliefs.

Have your say on this ? :)

I think we are more than Human. Probably there is a force in the universe that connects all living things across it, together. Probably , science will one day find out about this force.

…..

(Legs hurting)

Ok ! I'm going to eat something now. This will be posted later on in the day, this entry has been pre-written in the freaking food court because thats how annoying it was, the whole scenario.

Goodnight fellas !

Hi ! I'm tired....I'm going to sleep, hopefully, I get an OBE !

I feel crap.

I would've been much more better off in India. I feel so crap.

Yay !

My bed and table has been fixed up ! Will post pictures soon :D !

Arrg...

Hi Blog !

Yeah, I have time for you, finally. Shifting was so hectic, there are still stuff around the house that need to be either placed somewhere or like thrown out !

I like my new house, its pretty decent ( big ). My room has a balcony and toilet to it ! So cool :D !

One thing good about this house is that there are a lot of sockets, a lot. So plugging in wouldn't be a problem at all..I'm trying to keep my desk looking minimalistic, I just like things minimalistic !

So, yeah, I've been angry, pissed off, shocked, in tears, happy and lots of other things between the last post and this one. My vacations are coming closer and I don't know where to go or what to do.

This freaking heat is really annoying, if I open my balcony door and step outside, its like I'm stepping into an oven.

Seski the Punk DinoTeddy says " Hallo !! ^_^ !! "

Hi...

Hallo, I'm shifting, so if you don't see any sign of me, I'm still alive okay ?

-_- No one even reads this blog ! Blah nevermind..

Echos....

I never thought this would happen to someone like you......

It's hard when your voice echoes in my head and your pictures flash now and then.....Its really hard now that you're gone...I wish we could've known each other more longer....I'll get you your ice-cream one day, I promise....

You gave me such joy while I was around you, I love you forever, daughter..

Car Show'rrrrr !

Awesome car show thingy @ BurJuman, so cool, I like the Jeep with the tribals :D !

My song :3 !

Oo La La ???? O_o !

From behind the scenes of a fashion show.....

Workstation xD !

From top.

The Catwalk !

Doing events is as fun as it is crappy. There's a lot of flexibility and new things to learn.

I met some F'awesome PEOPLE ! Like this famous dude called 'Kevin Oliver' who does shows and stuff for GEMS Schools here in the UAE.

And then this other guy PAUL who knows EVERYTHING about Macs !
I also saw the Dubai Mall Animation and technical squad's studio, I think everything in that studio totals up to 1 million dollars or something.

Work is not that hard for me, I have to make sure the Designer's Logo and Dubai Summer Festival ads are placed on the 2 monitors outside. But this is a new learning experience and also my first job. I guess this will be awesome to have on a C.V. :D !

Hello followers !

Yeah ! I've been away due to work, which is actually really awesome ! It's a fashion show at Dubai Mall. Abbaya Fashion thing, really cool ! It gets over on Sunday, so I will post pictures and less of blogging till like the end of Sunday ?

Anywho, if you want to see pics just go to my twitpic account. Below is the link..

TWITPIC

OMFG....

OMFG....Hang over T_T !

Im drunk...

Hi blog, as of this very moment, I'm fcking drunk !!

Hi...

Hi ! Life ,you do know how to surprise me, always...

Losing My Religion...

Something....odd ?

This is exactly what I did and NO! I didn't make these and there is no one who lives at my place with that size of a palm. Ok..

So, I was taking a shower, thinking about the reality of the existence of ghosts or spirits. If they do exist, then they should probably have the ability to read minds of the living. So, I thought, why not test a spirit ?

Right after I closed the tap, I said these words in my head, " Ok guys ( spirits ) ! If you do exist, give me a sign which would make me feel weird and lead me investigate."

Then I put the towel on my head, I didn't see the mirror clearly, my mind was focused on the tower over my head. Then I, just for fun, try to see if something is written on the mirror. And there I see it, a small palm print of something. Now, I'm not going to jump to the conclusion of it being a spirit or ghost, but given the circumstances and the situation, I don't know how that could have formed.

In all my honesty, I did not make that.

It couldn't have been there before, because it appeared after the hot fog covered the mirror.

Even if my family members made it, It would have died out because they left for work 5 hours before I could get up.

I didn't notice it while brushing my teeth.

So, in the end what is it ? A random formation of sorts or ... ?

Things like this don't scare me. Even if a ghost/spirit actually showed up in front of me or appeared, I would or would not get scared. If it did show up then I would actually know if they existed or not.

Could this be a sign from someone ?

Totally awesome. I hope I get more strange occurrences.