Feel.

Feel ?

I felt a lot of things today. A wave of negativity and a white wall. I don't seem to be happy around here and I don't know why. This place just feels like a card-board to me and I wasting my college life here, I really feel that I am.

The assignments took a toll on my sleep and now I'm partial insomniac and after I submitted my assignment, I went into BLAH mood where I found myself staring blankly at the switched off laptop on my table and my poster.All grumpy and shit.

I have friends here, I'm not saying I don't, but getting to those friends are either hampered by time, college or some other bullshit. The only friend that sticks with me are my headphones.

My headphones are an expression of "GO FUCK YOURSELF ! " to the world, its one of the things I never leave my house without. Lot of things happened these past months and it seems time just flew by in a blink of an eye.

Maybe life is trying to teach me something here, but I can't quite understand it and the very fact I can't understand it annoys me. I don't know what to do or try anymore, my life is just college/computer/sleep thats fucking all.

Maybe I'll click pictures of the nice things I find here, maybe I'll find someone to love again, maybe I'll fix my insomnia, maybe....

Anyways goodnight....I don't even think anyone reads this...but goodnight...

Goodnight Harshi, you look beautiful as ever, I hope you're watching over all of us, and I hope there is really an afterlife....I miss you..