Ah, Pune...

So nice... :D !

Hey winter !

....I want you on your best behaviour ! Treat me with respect and care :3 !

Get up early for work ?

Yay ! -_- its 5:21 am and I'm going for a 2 day work that will hopefully pay me on time, this time.

I plan to eat a truck load with the wage :D !

What..

I don't know really, maybe we all grow up someday and we have to face one of use leaving this world. I'm still not over it okay ? so shut the fuck up !

But somebody else I knew passed a way a while back. We weren't close or anything but we said Hi, couple of times. Anywho, thats just life right ?

In a few weeks I'll be on a plane, yes, something I'm afraid of, a plane. But I really don't care what happens..I really don't, I'll just ride my way to my destiny or death whatever....

And then you'll wish you could warn me, but that only happens in movies, where you could warn somebody that they would die if they walked into a situation.

Life....is and always will be life in the end. I know this because it slammed me right in the face, the happy days are over. I'm not being emo-tard or something, I'm just saying, if you were 20ish or whatever, you get that feeling in you, your easy days are over.

I didn't sleep today, did some stupid law shit. I'm off to bed now at a time where most people get up.

Theres this awesomely beautiful song Harshi liked called Falling Slowly, it is the soundtrack to a movie called "Once" ? Its really beautiful.

God knows what other songs she has in her playlist.

Anywhoo, goodmorning everyone, Goodnight !

Love you Harshi XD !

Hm...Thoughts..

So what are my thoughts ?

I really don't know, my mind is scrambled.

A lot happened this year, and I'll probably remember it.

As much as I look forward to the new year, I wish I could rewind time and go back to the beginning.

Maybe I could've tried to get a job.

Maybe I could've spent more time with Harshi.

Maybe...a lot of things.

I learnt the harsh reality of the world. Things happen, and for no reason at all.

Your best friend could die of a simple reason as a is pilot sleeping. There isn't anything I can do now, I only find myself hoping that something does exist beyond this world and the bible is somewhat true in some aspects.

I'm happy and Sad at the same time,

I've made new bonds with new friend but some of the bonds of the past have broken. Its hard to keep it all together with a busy schedule, but I'll try reconnecting the dots if I can.

Next year I turn 21, my thoughts ?

I'm still gonna act like my young self, Yes, I have to be a bit mature but I'm not losing my craziness.

Anywho...Lol, I don't think anyone reads this anymore..haha

but whatever,

Goodnight.

Goodnight Harshi !!!! Even though I feel helpless, I'll still be strong. !!! I love you forever.

Tired... So tired...

Dubai Game Expo Centre 2010

Awesome day ?

Yep ! Today was kind of an awesome day for me as I got to see my game stall in the Dubai Game Expo 10. Its not the best thing but its a start and definately a good rep point to put into my CV. Will post the link to the pictures soon...

Abu Dhabi + Yas Marina Circuit + Ferrari World

Hate.

Yes I hate myself...
Why ?

Well I preferred luxury over experience, thinking that Dubai would be super awesome and I was wrong. I'm going to be honest, the reason I chose Dubai is because it offered the luxury that wasn't available in India. Seriously, this isn't the college life I dreamed of. Where are slumber parties, road trips, a lot of friends...
I'll soon turn old, too old to be enjoying college life, to old to enjoy.

Hi Brandon, you're such a dumbass.
Goodnight.

Realized

I just realized I'm nobody.

:') ! Love you..

I will never ever forget you

You have the most perfect face ever..

Harshini Poonja (1991-2010)

I love you,

Goodnight.

Cough, Well hello there !

Yeah, I haven't been here for a long time..Thats mainly because of all my assignments at the end of the 4th Trimester. I still find myself in a whirlpool of work and sleep deprived days. Ok, not totally for the latter but yeah, I just finished my 4th trimester and I have a week off but I'm still busy with work.
Work that I kicked myself into so that I hopefully get my portfolio buffed up.

I'm working with a team of game designers and we're working on a test game, just a test game, and its kinda overloading me, but I dragged myself into this for a reason or various reasons.Hopefully we get somewhere with it.

The 4th trimester, it seems events went passed me quickly, since my first day of college.

2 more trimesters to go and then I finish college. What will happen next ? I don't know.

Events that took place this year, I'll never forget. This year will probably be one of those years that will keep stinging me a tiny bit till I die. Stinging me with accomplishment or stinging me with sorrow...either..

I got to work on my english too, my vocabulary seems to be failing on me...Sigh ! Gotta read some books for a change. Sometimes I just wish I could just fall into a never ending hole where I don't have to do anything but rest or sleep.

College / work is taking a toll on my health and my eyes, I don't know why but somehow my eyes can take it, somehow, I'm blessed with strong eyes...lol

Nothing new has happened lately, couple of friends coming back to Dubai soon, gonna meet them, and yep thats all I think. Not much to do around here if you don't work.

I went to Gitex, really freaking crowded but I still went because of my techno-fangirly brain. I got a mouse pad though, not just any mousepad, a Razer mousepad and with that I got a bunch of freebies, so yeah, a new member of the Brandon's gadgets family.

Heres how Razer my workspace looks :

I love blogging, it lets me remove all the stress and rants out of my brains over here.

This is it for now.

:)

For Harshini : I LOVE YOU ! FOREVER !! YOU ARE STILL THE MOST AWESOME PERSON I EVER KNEW. Haunt me please !

Meditation.

...leads to the ability of seeing ghosts ? 
I'm going to try this.

Where are you ?

(1991-2010)

Where are you ?

Why can't you tell me.I keep thinking about you, everyday.

No, I can't forget it and its really hard to.

I want to hug you ! Even if it meant just for 1 minute and then I wouldn't see you again.

The only thing close to hugging you is hugging 'Mom' !

People will tell me to leave the past to the past and look forward to the future but I'll make sure I take this 'Past' with me, this memory.

I'm now really angry at God, if he exists that is.

I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like leaving this place.

I really don't feel like going away from 'Mom'....

I really don't believe in the paranormal, but I'll believe it anyways.

I'll die believing something exists than believing nothing does.

I won't be sad when I'm dead, I'll be dead, no feelings, no emotions, thats the end of me.

If something does exist beyond, then I'll send a message.

Goodnight Harshi, This blog is partly yours ! and your picture will be there forever.

I love you !

Goodnight.

Friend.

Whats it like to have a best friend ? I don't know.
I have close friends but no Best friend.

But I know they are really really awesome people.

Sigh.

Wonder.

Sometimes I wonder how less troublesome life would be for my family if I didn't exist.

Transform.

Gotta get started on my animation pretty soon.

Start up with storyboarding and then building it in 3d.

I slept for 11 hours today. 4:00 am to 6:12 pm.

Thats not good.

Gotta do many things.

I want to be able to see ghosts.

What am I doing ?

Animation will get the better of me one day.

Portfolio

In relation to my last post, I've made a portfolio site, something to keep me going perhaps.

CLICK HERE

Transmissions.

I'm here staring at myself at the mirror and just going deep into my own eyes.

What have I done till now ? What have I done to make a name for myself ?

Nothing.

It's a really crappy feeling you get when you have opportunities floating up and bursting right in your face, mocking and teasing you as they die out.

When you're all alone on your bed thinking about the future you and hoping he would be a jolly old man living a good life, perhaps a good partner, perhaps a good kid. Perhaps...living life.

But for now I just see myself in a shell, looking at the dark walls that surround me and the blue glowing rectangle place upon wood at the location I confine myself in at home.

Everyday just seems like a 2 way highway to me, I just need that bit of help that broken down cars get at the side of the road, something, somebody, some of it.

As for now, I'll just think for a while, perhaps I'm writing this while my real self is sleeping inside me, dying to awake one day to be somebody great.